LAST NIGHT.
just when i was about to sleep, i heard the intro of black eyed peas' single 'i got a feeling..' i was just merely listening until i realized that it was my phone ringing. so, i grabbed it from my study table and checked who it was. there's only one person i know that would call me in a wee hour and it's abdel. i wondered why he called, maybe he was just making sure that i'm already home after i had coffee with our common friends since he wasn't able to come with us for he was in his hometown..
i took the call. and i knew there was something wrong..
he usually starts our phone conversations with happy greetings by either singing or yelling love calling names.. last night was different. he wasn't happy. i could hear him sob over a thing i don't know.. i asked him what's the problem but i couldn't understand his answer.. he was saying something but it was vague since he was crying at the same time. i asked him to calm down so i could get what he was telling me..
i thought it was body pains again caused by the motorace and motocross accidents he had for the previous years. but, i was wrong.. that time, he was no longer awaken by the muscle contractions but because of a bad dream.
'bad kau akong damgo, bhebhe.. nawala daw ka sa ako..' ('i had a bad dream, bhebhe. i lost you.') those were his words... right at that m0ment, i wanted to wrap him around my arms and tell him it won't happen not unless he does something for me to let go of him but i couldn't.. so, i just said what i have to say everytime we talk about such topic. i told him i'll stay at his side as long as he wants me to stay there. i will never leave unless he gives me reasons to walk away from him.. i'll always be his partner if he continues to give me reasons to fall inlove with him more each day.. then, i told him to go back to sleep for it was already late and to think of the countless happy moments we've shared together before he closes his eyes.. and that's how we ended our talk. :)
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i don't know how long will our relationship last but i'm constantly praying that it may never end.. sad to say, everything has their endings - may it bad or good. i know that one day, i would wake up realizing that i'm on my own again.. that the person i used to be with will no longer be walking with me as i continue my life's journey.
whenever that day comes, one thing is for sure - that i would face it with a big smile and with so much love.. :) i remember what my bff always tell me: "that's right. let's not be afraid of losing something because a loss teaches us how to move on.."
right now, what i'm doing is showering him all the love that i am capable of giving. :)
many people asks me how could i act and think in such ways.. i always tell them, 'because i have an open mind. and acceptance is one of the values i know..' i am a person who just keeps on loving and loving without expecting much in return. it's up to the person to love me back because after all, i know life is unfair.. :) READ. i just keep doing good things to people because i want them to remember me that way. my spirit is always up!
I AM LIVING THE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. THAT WAY, I AM SURE THAT I HAVE GIVEN MY EVERYTHING AND MADE THE BEST THAT I COULD. WHO KNOWS, IN TEN MINUTES TIME, I WOULD TAKE MY LAST BREATH. ;)
wait, am i making any sense? LOL.
just when i was about to sleep, i heard the intro of black eyed peas' single 'i got a feeling..' i was just merely listening until i realized that it was my phone ringing. so, i grabbed it from my study table and checked who it was. there's only one person i know that would call me in a wee hour and it's abdel. i wondered why he called, maybe he was just making sure that i'm already home after i had coffee with our common friends since he wasn't able to come with us for he was in his hometown..
i took the call. and i knew there was something wrong..
he usually starts our phone conversations with happy greetings by either singing or yelling love calling names.. last night was different. he wasn't happy. i could hear him sob over a thing i don't know.. i asked him what's the problem but i couldn't understand his answer.. he was saying something but it was vague since he was crying at the same time. i asked him to calm down so i could get what he was telling me..
i thought it was body pains again caused by the motorace and motocross accidents he had for the previous years. but, i was wrong.. that time, he was no longer awaken by the muscle contractions but because of a bad dream.
'bad kau akong damgo, bhebhe.. nawala daw ka sa ako..' ('i had a bad dream, bhebhe. i lost you.') those were his words... right at that m0ment, i wanted to wrap him around my arms and tell him it won't happen not unless he does something for me to let go of him but i couldn't.. so, i just said what i have to say everytime we talk about such topic. i told him i'll stay at his side as long as he wants me to stay there. i will never leave unless he gives me reasons to walk away from him.. i'll always be his partner if he continues to give me reasons to fall inlove with him more each day.. then, i told him to go back to sleep for it was already late and to think of the countless happy moments we've shared together before he closes his eyes.. and that's how we ended our talk. :)
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i don't know how long will our relationship last but i'm constantly praying that it may never end.. sad to say, everything has their endings - may it bad or good. i know that one day, i would wake up realizing that i'm on my own again.. that the person i used to be with will no longer be walking with me as i continue my life's journey.
whenever that day comes, one thing is for sure - that i would face it with a big smile and with so much love.. :) i remember what my bff always tell me: "that's right. let's not be afraid of losing something because a loss teaches us how to move on.."
right now, what i'm doing is showering him all the love that i am capable of giving. :)
many people asks me how could i act and think in such ways.. i always tell them, 'because i have an open mind. and acceptance is one of the values i know..' i am a person who just keeps on loving and loving without expecting much in return. it's up to the person to love me back because after all, i know life is unfair.. :) READ. i just keep doing good things to people because i want them to remember me that way. my spirit is always up!
I AM LIVING THE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. THAT WAY, I AM SURE THAT I HAVE GIVEN MY EVERYTHING AND MADE THE BEST THAT I COULD. WHO KNOWS, IN TEN MINUTES TIME, I WOULD TAKE MY LAST BREATH. ;)
wait, am i making any sense? LOL.
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